Hello World!

by | Aug 1, 2025 | Life | 0 comments

It’s in a little more than one month.

The big five-oh.

I’ll be fifty years old. I’ll have spent two quarters of my life. I’ll be a Queen-ager. A senior woman, with not much to show for her life except for her acts of service for other people.

Fifty years of hardships. Twenty of unconditional love for my two children. Only nine with the love of my life.

I want to start being “selfish”. I want to grow, stop worrying about not being able to work, stop worrying about my health, mental health, and what I will leave to my children when I’m gone.

I want to do art and crafts. I want to do shadow work. I want to leave something behind… even if it’s just in the memories of people I met (online or offline).

At some point, I’ll disappear forever. The last person who remembers me will be gone. There will be nothing left. That saddens me… What will my existence add up to?

I guess it’s out of my hands. And I’ll have to live with that knowledge.

So let’s make those few years left the best I can.

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September 2025

  • start working on future passive income streams
  • blog about progress on future passive income
  • work on Artelier furniture building and organization
  • reset iPad for project
  • kickstart existing social media accounts
  • work on health and mental health goals
  • setup my fiction writing files
  • start Geddonverse Grand Tally

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50 Goals 

Artelier
  • get all the furniture installed in the Artelier
  • finish organizing the Artelier
  • setup gaming desk
  • setup big aquarium
  • decorate and make the Artelier cozy
Creativity
  • learn new artistic skills
  • write fiction and non-fiction
  • draw and paint
  • craft
  • refine my drawing style
Family
  • plan more family outings
  • organize everyone’s chores
  • make home improvements happen
  • organize admin stuff and get rid of the unnecessary
  • work on my “I’m dead, now what?” plan
Geddonverse
  • have a working version of the Irma Geddon and Geddonverse websites
  • brainstorm functional use of social media, and follow through
  • work on Discord server
  • …
  • …
Health & Mental Health
  • face my fear and go to the dentist
  • manage my diet to control my diabetes
  • track physical symptoms
  • try to reduce stress
  • prioritize what makes me happy
Learning
  • learn Godot Engine
  • read non-fiction books about my passions
  • learn pixel art with Aseprite
  • learn music production with LMMS
  • …
Life
  • make travel plans
  • read books
  • watch movies
  • …
  • …
Money
  • create a grand tally for my Geddonverse project
  • plan for home improvements
  • decide on spending limits and work within their boundaries
  • prepare income streams for future art/passive income business
  • manage kids’ money
Personal Development
  • journal about my anxiety and look for ways to reduce it
  • make sure I favorite “want tos” and refuse “shoulds”
  • …
  • …
  • …
Projects
  • work on my fiction and non-fiction books
  • create illustrations for future POD use
  • blog and interact with social media communities
  • start a gamedev project
  • create all the assets for the gamedev project

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Drinking latte macchiato, eating madeleines, lurking and smirking while I learn pixel art!